Thanks again

Thanks again for last night. You were literally my sanity, though I didn't have very much. I know I shouldn't have been so overwhelmed; it wasn't that big of a deal. Just something about everything put me on the verge of breakdown all night, which I tried so hard to push aside since I was in the middle of the street with two complete strangers. One of which refused to move from her spot on the fork in the road, even after my pleadings to go find warmth, and the other who kept asking us about our personal feelings about everything.

I was upset about missing banquet (especially the rest of the fourth year speeches and the final video and seeing your video when you came up for best musician) for something that might not even come to anything. I was upset that I was wandering the street looking for any sort of clue in a skimpy dress, trying to keep feeling in my limbs. And when we finally hiked from Alderman library to the observatory, I was upset people were howling at me. I don't like being scared when I'm in a good mood, and it took all of my control not to scream at them to shut up. Being mildly reprimanded for being late by the main people didn't help either.

I'm still so dismayed by it all. Dismayed that I was reduced to locking myself in my room and crying and crying. Dismayed that my boyfriend told me that I shouldn't come over when I needed him. Dismayed that I have to go back tonight.
 

Yeah, Ohio is really really good. I don't know if it's the calm before the storm, or the calm has just returned again, but I'm happy. Today we're going to a farm-park thing, because people in Ohio like going to farms for fun. I might get to milk a cow!

I hope bus driving is going swell!