I'm having a hard time. I made Jacob's bad situation worse. I don't feel any sadness for myself, just for what he has to go through. Everything just happened wrong, and in addition I'll probably never be able to feel good about my friendship with Cam again.
There isn't really a right way this could have happened. And it's only natural to feel bad for him. You'd be pretty heartless if you didn't feel at least a little sorry for him. I really do think that maybe this will be the spur he needs to figure things out.
ReplyDeleteBut the fact that you don't feel sad for yourself is only a sign that it needed to be done. If you had been happy for yourself in the relationship, you would be sad for yourself now.
And never is a long time. Things are still messy now. Give it time before you say never.